Even the Brightest Stars Fade a Little

Scene: At the Park with Daddy
Girl: Hi my name is Minnie. Want to Play? Can I make you a cake?
Nicky: Yep
Minnie: Whats your name?
Nicky: Hi, I'm a goat.

I don't make this stuff up.

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This is what I woke up too!

Happy Valentines Day to me!



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Priorities

It's only the biggest night in football
Biggest night in TV
So we {me} spend the evening watching Winnie The Pooh Heffalump movie with the boys in the biggest car ever
The Swagger Wagon
Priorities.



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Tiny Hands

May you always be the best of friends....

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Ta Da!

On Sunday night Dan and I invited Papa Ray and Papa Bob over for dinner.
We were making pork chops, a salad, and my favorite quinoa.
All three of the boys were naked
loud and proud naked.
running all over, chasing each other, using my couch as an expensive jumpy house
Typical evening really.
Standard.
Suddenly Brandon dissapears into the pantry
we haear a tinkle
we think - HE COULDN'T BE??? right??
he comes out with a big TA DA!
he did.
my little man
found a nice piece of tupperware
- he has some class -
and not his red Tupperware hat, thank god
- he knows better than that -
and used it for a pee potty
He proudly held it out for all to see
Dan wouldn't let me take a picture
But I am still blogging about it

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My Someday

A long time ago 

I was so full of confidence and pride 

and so young and naive
I didn't know what I know now

I didn't know the love that came with being a mom

I didn't know that you stop judging

I didn't know that you slept on the floor in their room

and stayed up for hours with them

that you would forever spend hours staring at them

and watching them sleep

wondering how you made something so magical

I didn't know that the joys of being a parent superseded anything on this planet

that i could love forever and ever to the moon and back

I didn't know that they become your life

that it is OK

a while back I wrote about a personal topic that I felt was important to capture in picture

{also included below}

important for me to remember years from now

it captured the essence of motherhood

the moment my bond began

it documented my journey

I celebrate the beauty and love

and want to share my experience, however personal

because there is not another moment more beautiful than these fleeting ones I had with my boys

and never again will it be the same

never again a missed opportunity

ps. Thank You Michele.

for the greatest gift

My "Someday" is Coming

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Almost a year ago, I reflected on a very personal topic. I wrote about a beautiful, meaningful, incredible connection I had when breastfeeding my boys...and also of a missed opportunity.

A year ago, I didn't think I was able to have another baby - I had a complication with Brandon that makes labor risky for me. I was heartbroken to think that I passed up a chance during my newborn session to capture the essence of motherhood. To document that journey. To share.

I forgot all about this wish until I came across an old post from a year ago and it dawned on me, that in 2 months, another amazing little boy will be here to share this experience with me.

I think Someday is coming soon. See you in two months Michele :)

A little personal but...

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

I want my boys to know how much it meant to me to nurse them. Even if it was only a short time. Even if they never want to think they did that with their mom.. I was that guy  that thought it was abnormal and it would never happen. I opposed it, and fought Dan on it. I thought it was "granola" and "gross" and totally "disgusting".

Then I had Nicky and the minute I saw him it all changed. It was natural and instinctual. In that instant, I became a MOM. It was a connection, a bond, an emotion I never felt before. I was moved. I cried. I LOVED it. I embraced it. But Nicky didn't. Dan and I spent the better part of two weeks getting it right. Finally he did and it worked.

I was devastated at 5 months, when Nicky started to deny it; when a bottle gave him more substance, but it was ok. There would be more.

When Brandon arrived, not only did he take to nursing, he was a natural. Together we were in unison, we spoke the same language. We understood each other. It changed me once again.

Two weeks later, during Brandon's newborn pictures with Michele at Pinkletoes, I had to stop to nurse him. She offered to capture these precious moments on camera. I refused. Now I am heartbreakingly sad that I did. I am not sure if I felt it was too private or I was shy. Or maybe I didn't understand how haunting an image like that could be, but I missed my opportunity.

Every so often she features these special moments between a mom and her baby and my heart aches. Her work is so beautiful, I wanted to share. She calls this "Someday...."

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Sneaky

He thinks no one is watching

as he rides around and around

when he is done

he looks around

so one will notice

when he opens the hood

and takes out the battery

then no one can ride it too

when he is finsihed guarding his "truck"

he plugs it back in 

and drives off into the sunset...

until Tomorrow.

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Making up with 8

Ok someone is a lot happier today and I must have my awesome mom cape on.

My little love - 8 months big!



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A Golden Moment

A Little boy golden retriever met the little girl golden lab down the street. It happened in an instant. Love blossomed...in a golden moment




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7 Month Onsie

I was slacking back in December and still pining over Roxy Roo. I missed Luke's 7 month birthday and forgot to put his 7 month sticker on him. I wast able to get him in a onsie! he grew out of them! I never had onsies after 12 months because the boys were walking by then. Luke is just so big. So better late then never.
He obviously wasn't too happy either. Sorry Lucky. xo

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